Saturday, September 07, 2002
I'm so fucking depressed.

Suicide sounds good, though it wont get me anywhere...and i couldn't bear to leave melissa hanging like that, like it was her fault.

Even in death, I would be restless for causing her such pain.

I guess....I still have a long way to go. These next few months are gonna be tough.

She's just a phonecall away...yet I can't make that call. Goddamit all to hell.

Wednesday, September 04, 2002
Well, I'm not going to Japan anymore.

Turns out my academic results just aren't good enough. In a way, I'm kind of relieved that I don' thave to save up that much money anymore, but I guess bleh

I still lost my chances of learning japanese to a greater extent tho :{

Hmm...........about the Mel thing, I'm really trying to cope.

So don't you all worry about me at once :}

If you're reading this, I'm alright :)

And ivan, if you're reading this, GJ at not telling me last night >:|

:E I'm not annoyed at you, i promise. if you still want chobits, I will still give it to you, thx mai ^^

Melissa broke up with me today.